The work

I am so sorry to have been away so long my friends.

It would seem that your humble host has been caught with his psychic pants down. Yes, the work itself has blindsided me.

To truly create from this place, this place of an honest want, you must be honest with yourself. While I realise that sounds simple, it is not. Ask yourself if you are truly being honest with yourself, and I mean deeply, truly honest. Ask yourself not only about your motives, but about your actions, your fears, and the steps you are willing to take to get to the end of the working.

I have started this wonderful lifebomb project as a multi-facted hypersigil to acheive a lofty goal. The goal is none other than to recreate the very life I live. To bring those around along for the glorious ride and be an example of self creation. All sounds great, right? Sounds like fun?

Well, there are many aspects that are an absolute blast, things and thoughts that are truly amazing. Then there is the otherside.

"But Morry," you ask," you said this would be a fun adventure didn't you?"
In a word, No. I said it would be a grand adventure, and it is.

You have to be willing to accept the fact that there will be some painful moments. Moments that will make you want to doubt, and even abandon the work. There will come times when your confidants will even express their concerns. Well meaning as they maybe, take what they have to say and continue on.

For myself this means coming to a head to head conflict with my own enemy.
I am being given the very oppurtunity to live the fiction that I have written, to be the greater person that I envision for myself. To do this, though, means suppressing bad habits and learned patterns that are destructive to what I want to acheive. They are deeply engrained engrams that are screaming in the back of my mind like a petulant child wanting his way and not getting it.

I will not lie, the situations a personal one, and the one that inspired me to embark on this glorious voyage of the SS Lollipop. It seems a greater pattern of behaviour from past circles has manifested. I have been able to do banishments on a more personaal level, but the greater pattern endures at this time. So, what do I do? Do I let myself fall back into the patterns of action that led me here?
No.

This is the chance that I am being given to prove to myself that I am stronger than that past, and stronger than the negative patterns that have haunted me.

In a sense I am going to relive a very negative time, time travel via pattern repetition. The difference being that I get to rewrite the ending this time.

"How?" you ask.

By living the fiction that I write, by not just wanting and envisioning, but by actually doing and living and believing. In short by being.

I will not lie, at this moment the scars from the past are enflamed and ache with the thought having to do this, but this is the work.

To truly recreate we must be willing to endure the consequences. This is what I wanted, just manifesting in a different way than I had hoped.

Since it wasn't perfect do I abandon it?

No. No, my dear voyagers, like Odysseus we forge on to the grand fictions end.

Parable...
In ancient times there were three generals on a mountain top. They were playing a game.
A soldier came rushing into the tent and proclaimed ,"It is the end of the world!!!"
The first general ressponded ,"If it is the end of the world then I will go and be with my family in the last hours'
The second general ,"I will go and feast on wine and food and sensuous delights"
The third just shook his head and looked serenely at the other two, "I will finish this game"

I am here to finish the game me droogies. It may suck now, the page always turns.